Yesterday I received my script back from the RNA's New Writer's Scheme.
It's always a tense moment when you fight through the tape on the jiffy bag, slide out your work and begin to read the reviewer's comments.
But as I began to read, I felt myself crumple with disapointment. My book, it appears, needs to be completely re-written. There's not enough plot and the characters' motivation and actions aren't right either.
OK, I know that its only one person's opinion, but you do have to respect the fact that the person who is reviewing your effort, is a lot more experienced than you are. And on reflection he/she is probably right, in most respects anyway.
My reviewer did suggest some ways to improve my novel and said that my writing style was good, and if they didn't think I could do it, they wouldn't have made the suggestions, so at least there was something positive about the report.
She then advised for me to go away, have a glass of wine and in a while, start to think about a re-write. As it was 11 o'clock in the morning, I thought it was a tad too early, even for me, to start on the wine, so I went to the post office and bought myself a Magnum instead. Ice cream is a good substitute.
Its so disapointing, after having spent most of this year working on my novel, to learn that I need to start again. But that's the nature of writing I suppose, its not about the wriitng, its about the re-writing. One thing I do know for sure, is that I need to kick start my job search again. Not just for the money - although this is a major influencing factor - but also because I need some kind of focus where I feel as though I'm achieiving something. Then my writing can become my hobby again, and I can take my time and enjoy it more.
And I will rewrite the novel. Just not yet. In between short stories, I'm going to have another go at last year's NWS script, because that doesn't need quite so much work done on it, and I have a bit more distance from it, so hopefully will be able to see things more clearly.
My conclusion from all this is that when you fall from the horse you have to get straight back on it. This writing lark takes guts doesn't it?
Have a good weekend everyone.